Blogging for cancer

Tonight I'm browsing the Web for blogs. I found quite a few interesting ones about design, bands I like and such, and about cancer --shocking just how many of them are out there. The thing is, I don't want to be part of the cancer club, join support groups or read about every other woman who has gone through this. The more books I read, the more my heads spins. But I'm so afraid to miss something, a piece of info I should have known, that I go around reading it all! Then I feel like I don't matter since it's all been done before. Last time I felt like this I was pregnant; when I have to live something that so many others have lived before me, I bombard myself with info for fear of missing something. But oddly enough, I refuse to let others' experiences define my own. By trying to pretend I'm the only person going through this, I give my gut a chance to speak to me loud and clear. So I will go to bed and write down all the questions that have been going around in circles in my head --I will need them for tomorrow morning's appointment.