What if?

What if tomorrow, someone told you you have cancer? How would you feel? Incredulous? I still feel that way. Having cancer never becomes part of life. It's not that I don't believe it or refuse to accept it, but I feel I'm standing at the window of my life, looking in. I am undergoing cancer treatments. I have chemo drugs is my body. I'm counting the days until I loose my hair. And there's nothing I can do about it all. You're afraid of heights? To bad, cause you have to jump... It's all too twilight zone. It's impossible. This can't be my life.